GD tests...

So I took my Gestational Diabetes test last week.... and didn't pass or fail... so I have to go in tomorrow for the stupid 3 hour test.... I'm not excited.... :-(  I'm 100% sure that I do not have GD...... I'll be happy when I get it confirmed tomorrow.
Jericho is doing GREAT!!  The kids get more excited everyday that their brother is closer and closer to coming.... today marks the 99 day mark.

Happy Double Digits Day!!

My tummy jumps...

So last night I was laying in the living room listening to music and feeling baby kicks... they happen a lot right now... he's very active.  I looked down at my belly and noticed that with each kick it jumped... :-)  It's so weird to watch, but such a blessing... I really love this little man and am so grateful that I get to see evidence that he is a healthy baby even if I can't actually see him yet.... I can't wait to meet him.

Update

It's been way too long since I've been on... it's hard to keep up with 3 kids and do your baby blog :-)

Well Jericho is pretty active at this point... still feels like butterfly wings more than substantial kicks, but I can feel him moving around in there.  I think I got my scanner working so I'm planning on trying to scan my ultrasound pics in & get them posted soon... we'll see though... like I said- it's hard to manage 3 kids and update too much.  My ticker says that Jericho is now the size of a cantaloupe.  He's definitely growing... when I lay on my back I can put my hand on my stomach and feel his body... and there's a bump when I'm flat on my back so everyone can see exactly where he is.  It's been pretty exciting lately.
I had a check up Thursday and his heartbeat is 130bpm... slower than before, but still normal... other than some morning sickness I'm doing just fine.

It's a Boy!!

I've been busy the last few days and not able to update the blog... but now I can... Jericho (TBD) Brock is the newest addition to our not so little family :-D

Isn't he adorable?!? He's a mover... super active- Joe says the most active of all 4 babies.  The ultrasound tech and Joe say that he'll look a lot like Silas with my chin.  :-D  I'm really excited!!  The kids are as well... they've already started including him as one of their siblings... when we pray they pray for each other and Jericho... it's great... :-)  

Also today Joe felt Jericho move for the first time!!  This morning he put his hand on my belly and Jericho rolled... tonight he kicked his daddy... that makes me really happy... it means that Joe can be a part of it in a more real way now... pretty soon the kids will be able to feel him too!!  

So So So Excited!!!!!!!!!

Tomorrow is the big day... I'm so happy I'll have the whole family with me!!  Will it be a Simeon Elijah or a Thai Gracie..... we should know tomorrow... :-D  As long as this baby is being cooperative!!

Best News All Week!!!

I picked Ku up from school today and she told me that she didn't have school on Friday... I got home and checked her school calendar and sure enough... she was off!!  So I cornered Joe and told him and we decided that we would all go to my gender ultrasound on Friday!!!  That's what I wanted anyway, but daddy didn't want to take Ku out of school... thanks God!!!  :-D  I'm so excited!!!  I want the kids to understand that this is OUR baby... and OUR family... I think that this just helps that!!  We're going to surprise them... they're going to be so stoked- especially Ku!!

Everyone Says It's Twins!!

I'm starting to wonder.... I'll find out for sure on Friday when I have the big ultrasound... they will leave no part of my uterus unscathed... :-D  Here's my great big belly pic... let's keep in mind that currently the baby is the size that it's HEAD WILL BE when it's born... that means I have to expand enough for the rest of the baby to fit in there.... wow.....

So close to finding out...

I had my 16 week appt on Thursday... baby has a healthy heartbeat- 150 beats per minute!!  Also we scheduled our GENDER ULTRASOUND!!!  Next Friday!!!!!!!!!  We're going to find out if my avocado size baby is going to be a girl or boy!!  Also I found a pack 'n play today.  I saved about $75 at a garage sale.  It will be really good to put in the living room so the boys don't step on the baby.. lol... we were planning on moving the bassinet back and forth but this will be way easier.  I'm so excited!!  Can't WAIT to announce what we're having!!

Maternity Clothes

So it's been awhile since I posted, but there hasn't been a lot that's noticeable... well today I went and purchased maternity clothes finally..... I've needed them for a couple weeks, but haven't been able to get there because of car issues... today I finally got there... I got 3 shirts, a skirt, 3 pairs of pants, and 2 dresses.... I feel like that will set me up for the times I really need it.  I'm totally ok running around the house in sweats and t-shirts, but when I leave the house I'd like to not look like a major slob... :-/

Next week I have my endo appt on Monday and my OB appt on Thursday!!  I'm really hoping we'll find out what we're having...

Seriously... ugh.

I know I've mentioned this before, but I've been trying to get into see an endocrinologist and have been having a TERRIBLE time... first my car broke down... then I went to see the dr and was refused service b/c I didn't have a referral from my primary doctor.  I FINALLY got in to see my primary today and got my referral!! So hopefully VERY soon I can get into the doctor I need.  This has been SUCH A NIGHTMARE.

In other news-  Here's my 13 week 3 day pic!!

No picture... but I did hear the heartbeat!!

So I went to my appt today and as I was sitting in the waiting area my dr came through to tell me that she had to go deliver a baby :-(  I had to see a different dr who was not nearly as personable... because it wasn't Amy I didn't get an ultrasound like I wanted.... I was SO LOOKING FORWARD to seeing my baby look like a baby!!  Instead I got to listen to the heartbeat.... it was very strong 159 beats per minute!!  Joe and I just smiled at each other when we were listening to it... makes me want to get a doppler so I can let the kids hear it.  According to the nurse I've lost 2 more lbs since my last visit... I told Joe if I had known that the key to weight loss was pregnancy I would have married him a long time ago and gotten pregnant... lol... ;-)

Silas... so cute...

I took this video today... Silas LOVES his baby sibling!!  He talks about the baby all the time and now that my belly is so big he is simply FASCINATED by what's going on... he's usually a lot cuter than this, but this is what I got.  For the record I said "want to kiss 'em" not him.  I'm still holding out all my hope that this is a beautiful baby girl!!

Holy Hannah!!

I've been wearing Joe's t-shirts basically since I found out I was pregs.... today I put on one of mine... and Joe took this pic.

So here I am at 11 Weeks and 2 Days... I feel HUGE!!  Several people have commented that I MUST be having twins, but I've checked and there's only 1 baby in there... 

FINALLY!!

THERE IS A LIME IN MY COCONUT!!!!!  :-D  That's what Joe and I have been calling the baby and it's finally the size of a lime!! :-D  Happy 11 weeks to me!!  One more week until my 2nd trimester!!  Today has been rough... I've been irritable and there were some things creeping up from my past... but Joe is an amazing husband and helped me through the day by knowing exactly what I needed and helping me out.  I couldn't ask for a better baby daddy, best friend, and love...

Boys Love Baby

The boys refuse to go to bed without "kissing the baby."  Yesterday Malachi climbed into bed and then FREAKED out and started crying b/c he hadn't kissed the baby.  I ended up crawling onto his bunk so he could.  Anytime Silas sees my belly his lips are instantly attached to it.  It's pretty flippin' cute.  The other day we were at Walmart and I showed them a prune... and told them that that's the size the baby is right now.  They seemed pretty impressed by that.  They also love looking at my ultrasound pictures and trying to see if they can see the baby... I'm sure they'll be REALLY excited about my next one b/c it will ACTUALLY look like a baby.
I've been so hormonal today... really need to figure out how to get over that.  I know it's impossible, but still I feel like I need to try.  I apparently snapped at the music director of the church we visited today... that was not my intention, but Joe says I did.  :-(  I'm typically relatively patient with the kids, but not so much today.  I feel bad about it, but they are really understanding.
I also have a sinus infection that's causing me a great deal of pain on the left side of my face.  Hopefully I'll feel better soon enough.  I'm taking some Tylenol Sinus... I hope it will be enough.

It's Beginning to Look A lot like Baby...

Sometimes I randomly browse Craigslist looking for something awesome to buy.  Yesterday I was looking at baby stuff and found this bassinet.  I'd been looking at a bassinet similar to this one for $120 and the lady who had this one was selling it for $30!!!  Of course as soon as Joe got up I asked him what he thought about it and if I could have it.... today I went and picked it up and it's sitting in the corner of my bedroom!!!  I am SO EXCITED!!!  It's like it's starting to actually get official.  Ku refuses to acknowledge that it might be a boy... she told me exactly where I could set up her SISTER'S bassinet in THEIR room... :-)  I explained that the baby would have to sleep in my room for awhile... :-)

A Picture and Some Craziness

This is me at 9 weeks 5 days.  I feel like I'm going to be a boat by the time 9 months is up!!!  I'm already showing and they say you don't show until your 2nd tri!!  Oh well... at least when I get sick people know the reason why.

So we had a bit of scariness this week.  On Thursday I got VERY dizzy and sick... like literally almost fainted... Joe caught me before I fell.  It was actually really terrifying... Friday I woke up and decided that it was time to go to the ER.  Turns out I was pretty severly dehydrated and had a UTI.  They gave me IV fluids and a lot of medicine.  The meds KNOCKED ME OUT- for 2 days I was fighting the effects of those meds... but I feel SO MUCH BETTER now.  I needed to get to the ER when I did.

Houston we have a Fetus...

Well today= 9 weeks.... I officially am no longer carrying an embryo around... it is now a fetus.  That means most of the organs and bones have grown in and from here on out they will grow and develop.  I'm 3 weeks away from my second tri and can't wait... I've heard the 2nd tri is all kinds of better.  :-)  I'm still suffering from morning sickness, but not nearly as bad... a bump is starting to form around my belly, but I'm not sure if I'm showing or if it's just swelling... we'll call it showing :-)  it just sounds better.  Baby is the size of a grape now... which is a good deal bigger than a month ago when it was the size of a mustard seed!!!  It will just continue to get bigger from here on out... yay!!

Please pray that my morning sickness will go away so I can try to eat healthier for this baby... I've been living off of pretzels, french fries, and waffles lately and I know I need to do better... I just can't keep anything else down!!  Tomorrow I'm going to try to drink a protein shake after taking Ku to school.... hopefully I can keep it down.

Sea Bands are SO AWESOME

I think it's safe to say that I've tried EVERY THING to get my morning sickness under control.  I tried Zofran... worked, but still sick.... Phenogergan... MADE ME SICKER.... crackers... pretzels... etc etc etc...

THEN I FOUND THESE:

They're accupressure bracelets that push on the pressure points that naturally relieve nausea... between that and up'ing my Zofran I feel a MILLION times better... I've actually been able to eat!!!  They're totally 80's...  look like those sweat bracelets from the 80's... but I'm totally rocking the look.  :-D  

Hormonal Hippo

AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I'm so hormonal right now!!!  My poor kids... I'm trying really hard to keep it all under wraps, but the littlest things are setting me off.... it totally doesn't help that Silas woke me up at 2am crying... he was asleep when I went to check on him... and then proceeded to sleep cry every 15-30 minutes... so I've been up since 2am.... and now everyone is selfish and fighting... Oh my pregnant hormones....

8 Weeks... Time to Tell

Yesterday was my 8 weeks appt!!  Brockstar Quatro has a healthy heartbeat and is progressing very nicely.  The doctor says I've lost 6lbs and that I was a little dehydrated... I told her that I've had some pretty serious morning sickness so she up'd my Zofran and gave me some really good tips about suppressing the morning sickness. I got my blood work done, but hadn't really thought about how much they were going to take... I was REALLY sick yesterday and hadn't been able to eat anything... so by the 8th vial of blood I was seeing double.... when they were done I stumbled down to the Subway on the first floor and bought a Sprite.... MIRACLE DRINK!!!!!  It got my blood sugar back up AND quelled the nausea I was feeling... needless to say I went and bought a 12 pack and a 12 pack of ginger ale. 

Doc says that at 8 weeks if the baby has a healthy heartbeat then there's only a 3% chance of miscarriage so I'm feeling pretty good right now.  I broke the news on FB last night... got a lot of positive replies... :-D  I'm excited!!

Phenogran Induced Slumber

Well I have been sick sick sick lately... on Sunday night I got on the scale and realized that in the last 2 weeks of morning sickness I have lost 10lbs and I also threw up some blood... I got REALLY concerned and called my doctor yesterday... the nurse prescribed me Phenogran which I was NOT thrilled about.  Phenogran makes you really sleepy and I am a stay at home mom to my 3 kiddos currently... she told me I could alternate it with my Zofran so I went ahead and got the script.  Yesterday I was able to keep 2 breadsticks down and already this morning I've had a chocolate pudding and orange!!  I'm really hopeful that I will start to feel better!!

In other news, I'm still concerned about how Ku is going to react when we tell her we're expecting, but yesterday we were sitting there talking and she told me she wished she had a little sister... so hopefully that's a step in the right direction.

Oh My...

Well I think it's safe to say that I have the REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY bad morning sickness without Zofran in my system...The first RX I got was for a dissolvable tablet that you took sublingually... that way it went straight into your blood stream... it was awesome... worked almost immediately and really well.  This time around I had an RX for a swallow pill.... it did not work as well for me... left me feeling nauseous and gross all the time... so when I went to fill my RX yesterday I requested the dissolvable tablet.  They told me they would have to call my doctor today and get approval... then they filled my swallow tablets which I didn't pick up b/c I thought "I can make it til tomorrow..."  Oh when I'm wrong I am so very wrong... :-(  This morning I woke up at 6:30 and proceeded to throw up 14 times in the space of 3 hours.... it was awful.  Joe went to the pharmacy around 9:30 hoping they would have it filled and not only was it not filled, but they had entered the RX wrong and were trying to give me the swallow tablets again!!!  They had to start over... and apparently it's REALLY hard to count to 12.  I ended up getting my meds around 10:45... which is good b/c much more vomiting and I would have been looking really closely at a trip to the ER... fortunately I got my pills... finally got it down and I feel much better now... :-)

Crazy Dreams...

I just shared this with Joe and thought I would post it here as well... I was taking a nap today and had a dream that I was at McDonalds... I'd been standing in line for nearly an hour waiting to order my banana split.  When I got to the counter they told me I would have to sign a waiver because bananas were bad for my baby (not true) so I ended up just eating ice cream.  :-(  I was so upset that I woke myself up sobbing... then I went and got some ice cream, but of course didn't have any bananas... I was so upset that I cried through my entire bowl of ice cream...

I feel guilty...

I feel like the lamest wife ever.... :-(  I'm tired all the time so I barely get to see Joe... we try to stay up in the mornings and do stuff, but I can't seem to make it past 10am before I fall asleep again... I should be doing laundry right now, but it's 120 degrees in the garage and just opening the door and feeling the force of the heat hit me makes me want to throw up... I can't do the dishes because the smell gags me... I can't lift weights because I feel so awful.... I can't go to the grocery store because the sight of all the food makes me want to puke....

Joe has had to take over doing so much stuff and I just feel so guilty..... he shouldn't have to do everything, and he's SUCH a great guy about it... says he doesn't mind at all.... but I do.  :-(  I just feel kinda worthless right now... and it stinks.

It's so weird...

I kinda feel like I'm going backwards... I've celebrated all of these accomplishments... like the brain being fully formed and the fingers separating... and now we're going through them again... or for the first time really... it's so strange...

I'm also feeling terrible... nauseous... headache... tired... frustrated for no apparent reason... just a general grossness.  6 more weeks until my 2nd trimester.... can't wait.  I hear things get better then.

First Picture of the Baby

Well I was wrong about dates... instead of 8 weeks 1 day I am 6 weeks 1 day.  So my due date is pushed back to March 20.  I'm not upset about this... I somewhat expected it.  It was SO GREAT to see the baby... and it's heart was just fluttering away.  :-D  The doctor wants to see me back on August 10 to do my intake.  She doesn't want to do the intake until I am at 8 weeks with a healthy heartbeat.  She told me that the chances of miscarriage goes down to 3% at 8 weeks.  So those 2 weeks cannot come soon enough!!  She said it looks like I have a VERY healthy 6 week old baby in there so I'm really happy about that!!  

Relief is Here!!

I've been REALLY struggling with morning sickness over the last couple of days... I woke up this morning when Joe came to bed... and pretty much immediately went to the bathroom to throw up.  Joe got up with me because he wanted to see if the doc would call in an rx for me. I called the office and the receptionist made it sound like I wasn't going to get one because they hadn't seen me yet.  About an hour later the nurse called and said she had a note saying I'd been vomiting.  She asked how far along I was and I told her 8 weeks.  She immediately called in an order for Zofran.  Joe went to the store to get it and it took them almost an hour after they said it would be ready :-(  BUT I'm feeling much better now that it's in my system.  I've actually managed to eat some food... crazy!!  I haven't really done that since Saturday.... BIG THANKS to my wonderful hubby who's been taking care of me and loving on me even though I'm hideous and my hair is standing straight up. ;-)

Best Baby Daddy Ever...

I can't say how wonderful my husband is enough... for all of the little things he does... especially right now.  He's taken over changing the litter... even though he's not a huge fan of my cat... he made me a pallet in the living room to lay on because I've been so sick... he goes to the store and buys bad for me food b/c it's the only thing I can keep down... he doesn't complain when he gets comfortable and I ask him to go get me something from the kitchen... when I'm nauseous he massages pressure points in my wrists to help... he has sympathy pregnancy symptoms... feels bad for me when I'm heaving into a toilet... he's just amazing... I am so blessed to have him... and so grateful to be having his baby and to have his babies already.... I'm so blessed... and I hope he knows that alot of that has to do with him...  my mom always used to tell me don't settle for better when God has the best.... I'm so glad God brought the best to me.

A Girl's Gotta Eat...

Oh the morning sickness has got me good... I've thrown up in so many interesting places today... usually I'm a stickler for my diet, but today I threw my hands in the air and said SCREW IT!!!  As long as the morning sickness persists I will eat what I can get down and I will not be a stickler... if for nothing else than to have something to throw up. I asked Joe to go get me a cup of soup today... the shrimp kind... they didn't have it.  So my WONDERFUL HANDSOME LOVING SUPPORTIVE FANTASTIC husband brought me choices....

Best baby-daddy ever..... <3  He's also been apologizing all day for me feeling bad... I tried to tell him it's not his fault, but he pointed out to me that it actually is kinda his fault.... and I say to him... it will be worth it in the end.

Can't Sleep...

I was so excited... I went to bed at 9pm!!  It's the first day in 2 weeks that I've gone to bed before 2am!!  So it's 12am now.... and I'm wide awake... boo!!  Oh well... it's done... I'm up... and I guess I'll watch a movie... I'm supposed to go see Captain America in the morning.... hope I can stay awake for it.

Morning Sickness is NO BUENO

So last night I made the grave mistake of speaking way too soon... I've been bragging about my lack of morning sickness... lately I've been feeling a little nauseous and dizzy, but not throwing up... last night I felt SO NAUSEOUS!!  I was skypeing with mom and told her that I was really lucky b/c I hadn't had to throw up.... then I hit send and ran to the bathroom to throw up.  Oh Joy!!  Hello Morning Sickness.... I'm ready for you to go away now.

Sleep All Day...

What a crazy messed up day.... I went to bed around 2am... been having REALLY bad insomnia in this first trimester... then I woke up at 7:30am... Micheal was coming over and I had promised breakfast... we told him this morning also and he seemed REALLY excited... that made me happy.  After he left Joe and I decided to watch a movie... it was really interesting, but as has been the case lately I was really tired and ended up falling asleep at around 11:45am... Joe woke me up at 1pm and took me to bed... then I didn't get up until 6PM!!!!!!!!

OMG!!!!

SIX O'CLOCK IN THE EVENING PEOPLE!!!!!

AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

Move over Violet Beauregarde... there's a new blueberry in town.

7 Weeks

This is how big my baby is... it's fingers are starting to form and it's constantly in motion... I can't feel it kick yet, but it's moving moving moving... 

Last night I noticed that I'm starting to get a little bump... it seems pretty early to get a bump, but it's not unheard of... my weight and body fat % have stayed the same so... it's definitely the baby.  :-D

My little Sweet Pea

6 Weeks

This is how big my baby is... it's heart has started beating and it's eyelids and arm buds are forming.  :-)  

I have been drained all day... just exhausted.... I lifted weights today, but didn't have the oomph I needed... hopefully I can take a couple days and get my head back on track... the kids will be home in 19 days and I need to be rested and ready to go when they get here.  

My first OB appt is in 11 days... I feel like it's NEVER GOING TO GET HERE!!  I hope I get an ultrasound when I go... I so want to see this baby's heart beat... Joe says he thinks we will... I hope so... <3

EXHAUSTION

Oh wow... I didn't know it was possible to be this tired... I slept all night last night.... got up this morning... did a few things... laid down on the couch... CRASHED HARD.... woke up 2 hours later... not wanting to, but because I felt like I needed to.  That was seriously 45 minutes ago and I could lay down and go back to sleep in a second if I tried... In 20 days the kids will be back and I won't have the luxury of sleeping.... I wish there was some way to conquer the tired bug.... :-(

I think Joe is Pregnant...

My poor honey... he's always hungry... has to pee constantly... and is having crazy vivid dreams...  I think he might be pregnant too!!  :-D  It's so cute.

Up All Night...

This baby does not enjoy sleeping...... seriously.  It will keep me up until 2am & then wake me up at 4am... as much as I miss my kids I'm fortunate to have a quiet house with a hubby who sleeps during the day... we've been taking a lot of naps together lately.  Here I am at 4:30am.... wide awake..... blogging... oh the joys of being knocked up :-p

The Rapidly Growing Brain

Click the link to see where I am currently... I thought this was SO neat.... I hope you enjoy seeing where the development currently is with my child... this video shows how the brain is developing...

The Rapidly Growing Brain

Feeling so Fly 'cause of B6

When I first realized I was pregnant I got a TON of canker sores in my mouth... and it felt like something was sucking all the moisture from my lips... I did a little research and found that the main reason for that was a B6 deficiency... I checked my prenatals and my my multivitamin.... ok... I had Joe check... and we determined that neither carried a great deal of B6... so... my hubby.... being the AWESOME WONDERFUL LOVING man he is.... brought me Super B supplements... I've been taking them once a day and they're VERY high in B6.  All of my canker sores are gone!!  I've noticed that a lot of women on my pregnancy forum are starting to hit the morning sickness phase... and they're all around the same stage that I am.  I was looking at a list of meds that it's ok to take if you're pregnant and found that B6 is an anti-nausea supplement as well!!  So I'm hoping that it will quell my morning sickness...

New Siggy

I made a new siggy for my online forum and wanted to share it with you.... tada:

Food Doesn't Taste....

Seriously... I had heard all of this stuff about food aversions and food cravings... I think pregnancy has robbed me of my taste buds!!  My salsa... which makes grown men cry- tastes like tomato soup!!  I've been crushing up chili petines and putting them in everything I eat just to get some flavor!!  Also I've found that if I eat things with VERY diversified flavors (ie. strawberries and feta cheese) that they taste a lot better... my water today tasted like metal.... and my stir fry tasted so bland... Joe watched me pour endless spices on it and said that something had to be wrong with me if what I had was bland.... nope not wrong.... something is very right with me... :-)

I Gave up Caffeine

I think my head might literally explode..... I read that caffeine can cause miscarriages, so I decided that I would rather be safe than sorry... so today I quit- COLD TURKEY.  I'm hoping that within the next few days my head will stop feeling like it's going to implode... I can't really take anything but Tylenol, and that's just not doing it.... I'm sure once I've kicked the habit it will be better... :-) Whatever it takes to protect this little bun in the oven....

It's Starting to Sink In

I kept trying to tell myself all day yesterday that I was in fact pregnant.... that there was a life growing inside me.... but I really just could not grasp it at all.  I kept talking about it to remind myself again and again that I was carrying a child in me... then I woke up today and my first thought was.  "I'm Pregnant."  I think I'm finally grasping the concept... and preparing for the next few months of my life.  I'm so excited and just praying that this baby makes it to term.... I want THIS baby.... a woman on my pregnancy forum that is at about the same development as me miscarried tonight... so I've been in a lot of prayer...  I also switched to decaf... so you should pray for Joe... lol

I have my first OB appt on June 27.  This doctor went to high school with Joe and delivered Malachi.  Joe said that she did it in less than a minute and a half so he totally trusts her.  I can't wait until my appt!!  :-)

Breaking the News to Daddy

Joe came home from work yesterday talking about how to solve the problems that PETA causes.... I found it all very interesting and in passing I mentioned that I had made breakfast and put it in the oven for him... as he's telling me the plan to take care of PETA he opens the oven... stops... and then asks "Why is this hamburger thing in here?"  I was like..."you mean the bun....."  He said "Yeah... why is there a bun in the ov....... oh..... wow.... there's a bun in your oven??"

The Size of a Mustard Seed

5 Weeks

If you look really close you will see a teeny tiny seed in the palm of my hand... that's how big my baby is right now... :-)  So small... but already forming organs that will be fully functioning in just a few weeks...
As far as my body is concerned I've been cramping on and off for a few days now... according to my research it's normal to cramp for the first trimester so I shouldn't be concerned... I'm still getting used to how my body feels... it just feels... different somehow... the cat is FREAKING out... probably because she senses my change in emotion and because my hormones are changing my scent.... she's been super clingy all day...

It's Official

Well.... my whole world changed at 5am... I had been feeling lately like something wasn't quite right... Joe and I have only been trying a month.. but over the last few weeks I have just felt different... I've been eating foods I don't normally eat... crying for no reason... smelling things stronger than I usually do... and a number of other things... I decided to take a pregnancy test and SURPRISE... I'm going to be a mommy... wow... I have 3 bonus kids that I need to tell... I'm praying that this will be a viable pregnancy and that my other 3 kids will welcome this baby with open arms.... here's to starting a new adventure in my life!!  

I'm going to keep this under wraps for now... I don't want to tell everyone until I know that it's viable... this is so surreal...